I want to DIE.
I want to kill myself.
I want to slit my wrists.
I want to hang myself from the shower curtain. oh wait. we don't have one.
Jesus hates me.
I could go on and on, but knowing that my mother will read this I don't want her to have to re-live that entire conversation. Oh and I don't want to think about it either...its like a snowball effect when I get going.
Anyways...the point is that being here is hard. And emotionally exhausting. And soul crushing. And to be perfectly honest I hate it. Well I have a love/hate relationship with it. I basically love being here whenever I don't have to speak arabic. I hate arabic. I answered my friends house phone today and the person at the other end of the line spoke to me in arabic and so i hung up on him. Okay this is not going in the direction that I wanted it to go to....so here is the point. I love the people, culture, and pretty much everything. I like it here. MOM I am not going to kill myself.
You can do it!!! Like I said before, you hate/love it now, but a year from now, you will mostly remember the good parts of your experience over there. AND by that time, you will have mentally recharged yourself to American lifestyles and laugh at evrything unfair/BAD thing that has happened to you. Until then, remember you are LOVED and can accomplish anything you set your mind to, even learning Arabic. :) Much love!!!
ReplyDeleteAngie...
ReplyDeleteI have the perfect solution. CRUISE. I basically need you to go, otherwise, I can't afford to go....so PLEASE COME!
And i am sorry you are having a rough time. Things will get better... Whats your address?!
wow angie its like a flashback of argentina! But i have to say I agrese with what the first person said...a year from now you'll laugh at yourself and everything that happened!
ReplyDeleteJust don't slice off your hmm*hmm's and moles with a potato peeler and choke on them.
ReplyDeleteWow, maybe that was inappropriate to post in public. You can delete that if you want. Hahahaha
I'm sorry that life sucks sometimes. In an attempt to motivate you, I'm going to quote the most obnoxious fish ever to be animated onto the big screen. "Just keep swimming, just keep swimming...."